9/18/09

Today is the day!

So in about less than two hours I will be on the road heading to the new chapter in my life. I'm amazingly calm at the moment. It seems to be hitting me in phases. I'll be really excited, so much so that like last night I can't sleep for a while. Then there are the calm stretches where I feel like its not quite happening yet. But the underlying excitement is still always there.

I said goodbye to my dad and bother yesterday, as I will not see them before I leave today. Kinda sad, but once again it hasn't hit me yet. I'm sure it will Sunday after my mom leaves me....or later in the week once it becomes real that I will be living in OKC and my parents are not within 30 minutes of me. But God is amazing and He will be my strength and He will get me through it.

I'm ready to meet the rest of my classmates and my intern. I'm ready to see Pastor Dwight, Larissa, John, Jordan, Levi, and Melissa again. I'm ready to meet my host family and settle into my new home for the next year. I'm ready to give little Hannah her gift.

But more than all that I'm ready to meet God and learn to let Him work through me at a higher level. I'm ready to jump in and let Him break me to put me back together the way I was meant to be. I'm ready to see me as He sees me. I need this. I need Him. I need to realize I am loved for who I am, that I don't have to earn it. I am ready to look at me and see the Beauty that is Jesus within me.

I'm ready. Today is the day where I truly begin my journey. The preparation is all complete. The money is raised, the items are bought and packed, no loose ends. My journey begins today. Literally lol. It's a five and a half hour estimated drive from Conway, AR to OKC, OK.

So, OKC here I come. =)

9/9/09

And the countdown gets smaller

Yes, we are in the one digits people! 9 more days!

I’ve been planning for this since late February and its little things that remind me its real. You know when you have been planning for something for so long its like, is this even going to happen?

Well the first moment that made it real for me was Seattle. That trip was amazing and I got glimpses of what changes I had to look forward to.

But then I went home and things were back to normal and I was even more ready to leave and begin my journey. But I felt stuck.

Then I got the call about my Host family and got to talk to my host mom. Cathleen Tichenor. She and her husband are a little older than me, have one two year old daughter, Hannah, and have a baby boy, Levi, on the way. I’m really beyond excited now! I move in 9 days! Next Friday, on the 18th!

There is so much I still need to do. Like pack. I don’t like packing and I am not sure how to get it all in our little trunk but it will work out. God is amazing and knows what he is doing and I am looking forward to trusting in him more with all the areas of my life and not just a few things.

*squeal of excitement*